Fear of becoming, fear of not being

Always wanted to be a writer, always will. What stops anyone from reaching their dreams? What stops me from writing? It is not that hard: take the laptop, open a page and type away. But in my mind, I feel the weight of the world. Like the words that I am about to write down are the most important thing in the world, like the world is waiting anxiously for me to type them. Like this will be the solution for everything and that the wrong word in the wrong place will ruin everything. So silly, but so powerful. Is this caused by the day to day anxiety I live with? Or is it that the desire of becoming is so scary that it makes me cripple with anxiety of even trying it? Not sure what is worst. Not trying at all and living day to day disappointed of what I could and am not doesn’t look like a better scenario. Everyone one of us has a dream, so few of us try. Scared of rejection day to day, living with anxiety disguised in being precautious. Checking the lights, stove, water taps constantly, I am becoming a health and safety inspector and all I wanted was to become a writer.